Another Gem from Talking-It-Out with my SBF

When Donna and I were talking through why I had once again let tracking calories and exercise fall to the wayside, I said (more like blurted out since I hadn't thought it through) that losing weight had temporarily become lower on my priority list because other things that were immediately present in front of me had taken a higher priority. I had things I needed to work on and weight loss would always be there.

Whoa.

Subconsciously I believe that I will always be combatting weight. I might get ahead at some point and get to my goal weight but I don't believe I'll stay there without continued effort. Now if you had asked me if I believed that I probably would have said "yeah" but no one had asked me that, I guess. I hadn't really thought about it. I watched my maternal grandmother constantly worry about her weight. I've seen my mother's weight go up and down over the years. I've pretty much been on a diet, thinking I should be on a diet, or beating myself up because I haven't been following my diet pretty much my whole life. I'd like to say I could get to my goal weight and stay there forever without any effort. I could say "My past doesn't dictate my future." Realistically I probably will have to be conscious of my eating and conscious of how much I've moved for a while. I hope to not have to count calories for the rest of my life, but I do need to be conscious of what I'm putting in my body. In our society where there is so much available to consume everywhere you go, it would be unhealthy for me to not be conscious of what and how much I put in my mouth. I look forward to the day that I am at my goal weight (which I've said is somewhere around 147 but after learning that Tyra Banks and Oprah weigh around 160 I may need to rethink that) and I meet a new friend or co-worker and they've never known me as an overweight person. After months of knowing me they see a picture of me from the past and can't believe it's me. Of course that will come after all the people who've known me in the past see me at my goal weight and can't believe it's me. :)

I've heard this idea several times lately and that always leads me to believe it's a message from the Divine Source.

If we don't treat the underlying source of a problem, it will continue to come back no matter how many cures we throw at the symptoms.

I'll let you know when I figure out what that means for me.