The Task at Hand

A few days ago I went to see a lovely woman named Jacqueline Valdez in Encinitas. Amongst other things I asked her why she thought that I couldn't seem to lose weight even though I know what I need to do. What is blocking me?
She said that people in the West like to call things blocks but it's really just erroneous thinking. (I would consider that a block but I guess that's just a semantic difference) She said my problem is habits--not habits like eating a doughnut every morning or nibbling on chips at night, but habits in the way I think and act. She said I'm very task oriented and when I don't see progress I tell myself "This isn't working! This isn't working!" and sure enough it doesn't. If I were to read back over my blog I would probably have to say she's right. When there is something I want to accomplish I see the task at hand and get to work. When I decided to work on my Master's degree, I saw what had to be done and started to work. As I did a project or completed a test I was one little step closer. I saw progress little by little. When working on losing weight it takes some time for results to show up. But before they can I'm telling myself it isn't working.
This is a pretty ingrained thing with me. I don't know how to stop doing it. It's something that serves me well in most life situations. It got me through a Bachelor's and two Master's degrees. It helps me get things done at work and home. In general this is not something I want to change about myself. :-<
She told me to continue doing yoga--that it was really strengthening me and was good for me (I agree!) and she told me to stop worrying so much about losing weight. Easy for her to say! haha! On the upside she seemed to believe I'd get it together because she predicted I'd have a new body in 12 months.

In other news I feel extraordinarily bloated up like I gained 10 pounds. I try to tell myself that it's just bloat and not real weight, but it doesn't really matter because I can still feel my stomach get in the way when I'm doing twists in yoga class and my clothes are too tight or clingy. No matter what is causing it, it is uncomfortable and has been going on for a good week now.